my morning alarm woke me up...
i was so sleepy that I went back to bed...
not 5 minutes later, I started coughing continously...
so, went to the bathroom, wudhu, and prayed...
then tucked myself back in bed.. slept tight...
maapin sayah Tuhan... hihihi...
Monday, July 07, 2008
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
A mother expects all the best from her child, doesn’t she? But what happens if a child couldn’t give enough satisfaction to its mother? Guess that’s what I’m feeling now. Every small goal I’ve achieved doesn’t make my mom proud, and wants me to reach higher goals. But who starts from level 0, and directly reaches the top?
As an example, a few months ago (yeah, imagine, it happened months ago and it still stuck in my head!) My mom accidentally saw my grades. Yeah, I had 2 Cs, and a few Bs, but I had some A’s as well… If all my grades were calculated, I had a GPA of 3.5 that time. Isn’t that already a Cum Claude for a university standard? But what did my mom say? Nope, no GOOD JOB KIDDO, but laughed, and said it’s humiliating! Maybe becoz I’m the kid of a well known person in de academic field, she wanted me to have a 4.00 GPA!! Haha!! I’m no Einstein mommy…
My job is another problem! My mom was happy when I first started to work, considering that I’ll have something to do, rather than doin nothing at home. But nowadays, she doesn’t like me working for de company. Once in a while, she likes to mention about the future and how I should have a better job, and told me to quit! I understand what her point is, but I have reasons for sticking with this job! First, I’ll have to pay a penalty for breaking the contract. Second, the company understands that I’m still a student. So, I could work in my spare time, if I got no classes. Third, I’m still in the search for a better job, but I’m always stuck with my other status as a student, and ‘de urgency of achieving my bachelor’s degree!
Then, age is also related with my job. My mom thinks I’m too old! Since when is 23 considered old? I have a job, while others who are older than me are jobless! I’ll graduate next year (Insya Allah), while other people older than me are struggling to pass a class. What disturbs me the most, age related, is my status! Has “40 years old virgin” shifted to “20 years old virgin”? I mean, am I already too old, that I should get married ASAP? People my age, haven’t had wrinkles, don’t get ill easily a.k.a still fit, and is still easy to get babies! So, what’s the rush?
Marriage isn’t easy. You don’t see a guy, date him once, and boom! Get married! There are too many points to consider, financially and mentally. In addition, our parents blessing! My mom’s criteria’s was he has to have a strong religion, and has already got a job. And once I started dating a person that matches her criteria, she gives a big NO sign!
I love my mom so much! I’d do anything to make her happy. But I never can do it right.. her way!!
As an example, a few months ago (yeah, imagine, it happened months ago and it still stuck in my head!) My mom accidentally saw my grades. Yeah, I had 2 Cs, and a few Bs, but I had some A’s as well… If all my grades were calculated, I had a GPA of 3.5 that time. Isn’t that already a Cum Claude for a university standard? But what did my mom say? Nope, no GOOD JOB KIDDO, but laughed, and said it’s humiliating! Maybe becoz I’m the kid of a well known person in de academic field, she wanted me to have a 4.00 GPA!! Haha!! I’m no Einstein mommy…
My job is another problem! My mom was happy when I first started to work, considering that I’ll have something to do, rather than doin nothing at home. But nowadays, she doesn’t like me working for de company. Once in a while, she likes to mention about the future and how I should have a better job, and told me to quit! I understand what her point is, but I have reasons for sticking with this job! First, I’ll have to pay a penalty for breaking the contract. Second, the company understands that I’m still a student. So, I could work in my spare time, if I got no classes. Third, I’m still in the search for a better job, but I’m always stuck with my other status as a student, and ‘de urgency of achieving my bachelor’s degree!
Then, age is also related with my job. My mom thinks I’m too old! Since when is 23 considered old? I have a job, while others who are older than me are jobless! I’ll graduate next year (Insya Allah), while other people older than me are struggling to pass a class. What disturbs me the most, age related, is my status! Has “40 years old virgin” shifted to “20 years old virgin”? I mean, am I already too old, that I should get married ASAP? People my age, haven’t had wrinkles, don’t get ill easily a.k.a still fit, and is still easy to get babies! So, what’s the rush?
Marriage isn’t easy. You don’t see a guy, date him once, and boom! Get married! There are too many points to consider, financially and mentally. In addition, our parents blessing! My mom’s criteria’s was he has to have a strong religion, and has already got a job. And once I started dating a person that matches her criteria, she gives a big NO sign!
I love my mom so much! I’d do anything to make her happy. But I never can do it right.. her way!!
Saturday, February 02, 2008
I read my blog archives.. and I’m missing Cleveland!! From de stories I had written, it seems that I had a great time in de states!! But why is it, when I was still stayin there, I always wanted to get home soon? And now that I’m here, I do de same ol routine.. work.class.home. nothing fun. It’s not that I get stressed about it, but I think I need something new. Hmm…
And a few days ago, I dreamed bout two friends from Cleveland… Now it makes me miss Cleveland even more! Or maybe it’s not Cleveland! But my ol friends in Cleveland. But they’re all in Jakarta, and I’m back here. And even though I was in Jakarta, there won’t be any time for us to meet. We’re too busy with our own activities. When we were in Cleveland, we were like a family. We’ll be there for each other in sickness and in health!! Ih.. ituw kutipan tuk orang mo kawin!! Hihihi.. but de point is, like a quote says, “close friends will always be there!” but I guess I gotta add that close friends will be there if you’re in de same society, either you are neighbours, co-workers, going to de same school or college, or always meeting each other. But after not being in de same society, they’ll just become ordinary friends. Like me, I had a close friend in junior high school, but after we graduated, we both were busy with our school. In high school, I had several close friends, but after we graduated, we were busy with college and work. Except for a few who I always keep contact with… for gossips :P And in Cleveland, I had some close friends, but I haven’t met them for 2 years already!! All de close friend I’ve got now is my boyfriend!! hahaha …
Guess it’s true what some people says… if you got a bf, you won’t be having a social life. Coz if you wanna go out, de first person that comes up your mind is your bf/gf! If you wanna call someone, de first person you dial is your bf/gf! Hehehe… oh, another fact I found out, or based on my personal experience, is that a big fight, lights up the romance in a relationship =D maybe we should be fighting more often...
And a few days ago, I dreamed bout two friends from Cleveland… Now it makes me miss Cleveland even more! Or maybe it’s not Cleveland! But my ol friends in Cleveland. But they’re all in Jakarta, and I’m back here. And even though I was in Jakarta, there won’t be any time for us to meet. We’re too busy with our own activities. When we were in Cleveland, we were like a family. We’ll be there for each other in sickness and in health!! Ih.. ituw kutipan tuk orang mo kawin!! Hihihi.. but de point is, like a quote says, “close friends will always be there!” but I guess I gotta add that close friends will be there if you’re in de same society, either you are neighbours, co-workers, going to de same school or college, or always meeting each other. But after not being in de same society, they’ll just become ordinary friends. Like me, I had a close friend in junior high school, but after we graduated, we both were busy with our school. In high school, I had several close friends, but after we graduated, we were busy with college and work. Except for a few who I always keep contact with… for gossips :P And in Cleveland, I had some close friends, but I haven’t met them for 2 years already!! All de close friend I’ve got now is my boyfriend!! hahaha …
Guess it’s true what some people says… if you got a bf, you won’t be having a social life. Coz if you wanna go out, de first person that comes up your mind is your bf/gf! If you wanna call someone, de first person you dial is your bf/gf! Hehehe… oh, another fact I found out, or based on my personal experience, is that a big fight, lights up the romance in a relationship =D maybe we should be fighting more often...
Sunday, January 20, 2008
I had my 10th Muharram fasting yesterday. And I had a cold at de same time! How great was that?? Thankfully I went thru magrib without eating… but did a lotta sleeping though!! Hehehe.. At around 9 pm, I was craving for coto! I couldn’t stop thinking about it. So, wif a quite high fever, I asked my cousin to take me to de nearest coto place by motorcycle, since I didn’t have enuff energy to drive! After a bowl of coto n 1.5 ketupat, and a cup of hot tea, I felt fresh. De cold wind I felt that nite was worth it!!!
I was told that if we fasted on 10th Muharram, all our sins for a year would be erased. But after thinking about it, isn’t Allah fair? I mean, are there suppose to be a specific day where our sins are fully erased? How about de people who was sick, had their period, or just forgot it was 10th muharram? Will God not erase their sins? Or how about de people that tried killing themselves (but did not succeed) or just killed someone a day before 10th Muharram, and decided to fast on that day? Maybe it’s just one of our ancestor’s beliefs that has been brought from year to year. Same as de belief that if you buy spoons, forks, ember, or anything related with kitchen utilities, Your finance will be running well.. huhu… what kinda myth is that?
Another thing that happened yesterday was a big demonstration refused de investiture of de temporary governor of South Sulawesi. A lot of roads were closed. When I had to pick my lil sister from school, I had to take de long way to her school, coz I was afraid I’d be stuck in a traffic jam. Eniwei, I’m not really into politics, but that’s de big highlight.
Nothin much happened today. Beside that my Dad went to Jkt early this morning, and came back in de afternoon. And he was having a cold! I felt a pity for my dad, since he’s been working like crazy, and neglected his own health. That’s why I’ve been thinking of a way to earn lotsa money, so I won’t have to trouble my dad too much. But how? Rob a bank maybe?? Hehehe…
I was told that if we fasted on 10th Muharram, all our sins for a year would be erased. But after thinking about it, isn’t Allah fair? I mean, are there suppose to be a specific day where our sins are fully erased? How about de people who was sick, had their period, or just forgot it was 10th muharram? Will God not erase their sins? Or how about de people that tried killing themselves (but did not succeed) or just killed someone a day before 10th Muharram, and decided to fast on that day? Maybe it’s just one of our ancestor’s beliefs that has been brought from year to year. Same as de belief that if you buy spoons, forks, ember, or anything related with kitchen utilities, Your finance will be running well.. huhu… what kinda myth is that?
Another thing that happened yesterday was a big demonstration refused de investiture of de temporary governor of South Sulawesi. A lot of roads were closed. When I had to pick my lil sister from school, I had to take de long way to her school, coz I was afraid I’d be stuck in a traffic jam. Eniwei, I’m not really into politics, but that’s de big highlight.
Nothin much happened today. Beside that my Dad went to Jkt early this morning, and came back in de afternoon. And he was having a cold! I felt a pity for my dad, since he’s been working like crazy, and neglected his own health. That’s why I’ve been thinking of a way to earn lotsa money, so I won’t have to trouble my dad too much. But how? Rob a bank maybe?? Hehehe…
Thursday, January 03, 2008
2007 has already ended! 2007 is one of de most memorable year I’ve experienced!
In the first month of de year, I got myself a job!! Gotta say that this isn’t the best job ever, but I feel I’m a step closer in achieving my dream of having my own pre-school. I know the basics of teaching, or at least de company’s teaching standards. I learned to talk in front of people and answering questions (dan ngelesnya :P). I met people from different backgrounds, jobs, ages, etc. .I also gained a whole lot of knowledge, especially in English. And this job gave me the opportunity to become an MC for the very first time :D. One important thing I get from this job is; handling children is tough!!!!
Another change is my status! Taken!! Having a BF sure is good! It felt like yesterday I had eyes on him, waiting nervously for signs, intensely communicating, and finally became a couple! It’s been 9 months now! Not that long, but guess we’ve been thru a lot! Especially the first few months. I still remember other people’s comments, that I could get someone much better than him, or he’s just playing games on me, or he doesn’t have a future, or he’s not that good looking. But see… we’ve made it this far… Hopefully it’ll be everlasting.. Amiiieenn
In de mid of de year, I won my very first beauty pageant competition. And it’ll be my last one too!! Well… can’t guarantee.. but I don’t think I’ll be in any beauty pageant for the time being.. Remembering the pressure I’ve gotten! Maybe I’ll be trying other new challenges.. Being an Indonesian Idol maybe? Hahahha… impossibilito!!!
One thing that needs changing is… my temper!! I get mad easily. Or is it coz of my age? People getting older gets mad easily.. that’s what I heard… and my mom always gets mad nowadays!! Huhuhu… Another thing I wanna change is my habit of being a procrastinator! Just like now, I’ll be having my finals tomorrow, and I haven’t opened my text book! Demmmm…. Oh, another bad habit I wanna get rid of is biting my nails!!
All my 2007 resolutions (thankfully) have been checked! I got a job, got a bf, and lost couple of pounds! Didn’t put that many on de list coz I was afraid that I won’t be able to do em all!! So, for de year 2008, my resolutions are:
- KKN ato magang spaya bisa cepet luluuush!!
- Nambahin satu 0 lagiy di tabungankuw! I need an additional job! Huuuh… how I want my own business!!
- Blajar satu bahasa baru! I’ve been searching for a mandarin language course center in town, but haven’t found any!!
- Doing some kind of social work. Nyenengin diri ndiri, orang lain, en dapat pahala :D
Ohay… I’ll be checking on de results next year!
Hepiy Nu Year peepz!!
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Monday, December 17, 2007
Congrats to de 1st winner of Asian Idol, duh… forgot his name… all I could remember was his cute face!! A good look sure does have a big role in this competition! Or maybe lots of people had a strategy like I did! Coz we were supposed to choose 2 idols we loved. For Mike to have a bigger chance in winning, I thought that I’ll get another country whose population is the smallest.. and it goes to spore, and that Spore Idol (oh, his name is Hadi Mirza! Finally remembered it!!) doesn’t have de best voice in de competition (at least that’s what de judges thought)! So maybe coz most people had de same thought as mine.. he became de Idol!!!
On to another topic… I’m a bit upset of de police in my area.. There’s this “nasi kuning” warteg that opens every morning beside my house. It has been openned for about 6 months already, and from day to day de customers are increasing. De problem arises when a week ago, some police came and told them to shut the business, to not be selling in that area anymore. The owner pleaded to not kick them away, and they'll sell inside de yard. But de police still insisted that they can no longer be doing business there, de reason was becoz there were no parking area! Okay, de reason can be accepted, if they did de same thing to other businesses in that area! But no... they had to close down this small business, that's open for only four hours every day, and has only 3 cars parking. Instead of this very big store, that causes traffic jam everyday coz de parking area isn't enuff!!! See how unfair de government is treating these people??!!
Arghh!!! eniweii... also a week ago, my cousin visited home. She was with her husband, who's also a policeman. Then I asked,"knapa, kalo polisi masih dlm masa pelatihan, badannya bagus, kekar2 gituw... tapi begituw udah muley kerja, peyutnya jadi membuncit?" fyi, his tummy was also like a pregnant woman!! but he just laughd hysterically at my question... guess he doesn't have any clue.. and I'm still curious of de answer.. any one willing to help?
On to another topic… I’m a bit upset of de police in my area.. There’s this “nasi kuning” warteg that opens every morning beside my house. It has been openned for about 6 months already, and from day to day de customers are increasing. De problem arises when a week ago, some police came and told them to shut the business, to not be selling in that area anymore. The owner pleaded to not kick them away, and they'll sell inside de yard. But de police still insisted that they can no longer be doing business there, de reason was becoz there were no parking area! Okay, de reason can be accepted, if they did de same thing to other businesses in that area! But no... they had to close down this small business, that's open for only four hours every day, and has only 3 cars parking. Instead of this very big store, that causes traffic jam everyday coz de parking area isn't enuff!!! See how unfair de government is treating these people??!!
Arghh!!! eniweii... also a week ago, my cousin visited home. She was with her husband, who's also a policeman. Then I asked,"knapa, kalo polisi masih dlm masa pelatihan, badannya bagus, kekar2 gituw... tapi begituw udah muley kerja, peyutnya jadi membuncit?" fyi, his tummy was also like a pregnant woman!! but he just laughd hysterically at my question... guess he doesn't have any clue.. and I'm still curious of de answer.. any one willing to help?
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